We are all connected

We are connected!

Love, time, death .... these three things connect everything in our world. We long for love, we wish we have more time and we fear death!

Everybody writes letters to the universe, but most of them don't get an answer, but in case of someone who has lost his child, he will write to time saying....

Time.....

They say that you heal all wounds, but they don't talk about how you destroy all the good in the world, how you turn beauty into ash, you're nothing more than a petrified word to me, you're dead tissue the wound decompose, you're nothing.... 

Memories of oblivion

Do you remember that moment when you sit alone staring at the roof of your bedroom and wondering whether you are happy in your life of not!
But you know what! This is not the supposed question to be asked! You were supposed to ask yourself; are you capable of accepting the idea of erasing every single harming moment you had lived! Well......  some scars are incurable, but you can hide them deep down, masquerade the tiniest moment that affects your present condition, because living with painful memories is hard despite all what you have done to eliminate their effects in current life, you couldn't.
but remember always that we can only learn if we made mistakes, if we hadn't had any, our lives would have been meaningless, because as soon as you get exposed to failures in your actions, the shock would be harder a thousand times more! So accept your pain and embrace you mistakes without being proud of doing them in the first place. Learn from them and face your life with an optimistic smile.

A Pathetic Countdown

I pumped into a quote that keeps whispering in my ear, it says "embrace the reality that everything won't be okay and you don't mind it anyway!"

Well........ sitting counting down for myself cuz maybe with less than five minutes I'll become 21! It may sound pathetic but believe me it doesn't matter, as well as you know that you are keen of going on till you reach the stars, nothing will stop you.....

So all I'm gonna say is that I wish for myself a blissful year with a continuous success!

A cry for life!

Being a refugee is not a choice, no one leaves his home unless his home has become a massacre land! 12 million Syrian has been displaced from their country since this hideous has begun. And Yes, I’m one of those 12 million who lives on the hope of embracing their land again. Have you ever thought of looking deep down in Syrian children's eyes ? Have you ever thought of reincarnating their passion in looking for a new life? running away from bombs and missiles, riding an aggressive wave in a merciless sea, wasting their lives in chasing a hopeless dream! 

Maybe a picture can say a hundred word, but till now I think that we have heard uncountable number of words! and the question will always linger in our ears, when will the true action come?

  

The beautiful mess

It has been said that something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a typhoon  halfway around the world......
Well, many people believe in this quote, and carry it in their hearts believing that it has somehow aided in what they have become, it's called "The butterfly effect" and others call it "The chaos theory", if you surrender your mind to this realistic made-up quote, you will start bargaining individuals' minds making them obedient to your controversial thoughts, it will raise your level of confidence and your social reputation because it can give you a push to do as tiny things as you can imagine impacting a change to color the image of happiness you need, and even if it didn't give any instant effect, remember this effect could be quantitative!
Never give up!

Unleashing the internal titan

Fears, creepy people, monsters, spiders, hidden emotions, diminished memories, dead people, wrong choices, tremendous pressures, rejections………..
Everyone has an untold story behind closed doors, so don’t ever misunderstand a spontaneous reaction to a dear person!
Well today I’ve decided to unlock one of my closed doors, and tell you what made my soul get so attachable to its family……
Imagine, while you are living in peace, wasting your summer time playing on your laptop, watching your little brother coloring his creative drawings, listening to the sound of the humming birds singing out of the window, and then out of sudden, you hear a vague scratching sound on the top of your roof merged with a sound of a massive explosion conquering your peaceful aura, followed by a cry for help……. Guess this cry was from whom?
It was from my mother screaming, frightening, crying, and telling us to get down to the shelter………
Yes, it was the first time I felt that my family and I were in grave danger, our city was being boomed by the military, and my mother witnessed a bullet wrecking down our neighbor’s doors.
We stayed in the shelter for 3 days in a row, feeling afraid of losing any member of our family…
Since that day I knew that losing any part of my family is the fear that will always accompany me, and will always come to my mind when I’m in my weakest condition.
That ‘s why what lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us, because sometimes the most powerful among us are the ones who smile through silent pain, cry behind their closed  doors, and face their unknown destiny with an optimistic smile…………

Pinoccio

Since yesterday was the first of April which means April fool's day, it was supposed to be like this: lies lies lies and lies, but guess what! I've discovered that yesterday nobody lied to me neither do I, I didn't even think of making fun of anybody or fake any lie.

Maybe we are living in a world where everyday is April fool's day, and out of a sudden everyone decided that the first of April will now on be the day of honesty! Imagine that every day you hear lies and you make decisions counting on them, so what's next ? 

When will we reach stability,  what's happening in this liar world which lies in a liar galaxy! 

I'm done.

Tears

Yes, she is the one whom we cry on her shoulder, she is the one who enjoys our tears of joy and she is the one who cries when she feels our sadness.
That's true, mothers mean tears, tears in their different kinds, even if your mother got the tiniest wound cut, you would feel self-irritable, no one can imagine a beautiful day without her presence, and no one will ever remember a happy memory without her soul in it :')
Her entity fills our lives with every little meaning of the reason why we wake up in the morning.

Strength lies in letting go

Memories of previous experiences will always haunt our souls finding their way in demolishing every remaining intact part of our brain that's searching for a way out!
Have you ever lived this feeling? Surviving from a humiliating experience after wasting a lot of time and effort on something or someone, this feeling will keep eating your brain like a hideous illness, but you know what! Strength lies in letting go........
Letting go of the tiniest details that might harm your heart, letting go of every relevant moment to that something and letting go of the disease that  settles in you telling you that you won't overcome it!
Stay strong cause at the end of the day you will only have yourself to rely on.

The optimistic karma

You can be powerful someday but time is always more powerful than you!
Sometimes when you miss evaluate the circumstances around you and you stay stubborn waiting for change to happen but it never comes, you start scratching your surroundings' hearts intentionally and unintentionally resulting in huge overturns in you life.
Now there you are, at the end of the day  resting in your bed of regrets waiting for karma to happen, knowing that there is a massive damage is going to wreck your walls down, and out of a sudden you find yourself resting in a deep sleep like a warrior who has ended his battle.
In the next morning you open your eye on a cheerful smile from your mom, and an optimistic message from an anonymous, starting your morning trying to wear the mask of indifference and taking the first step in your daily journey to find your inner peace!

The bells

Listen to the tintinnabulation of the bells, how it swells how it dwells, on the future how it tells on the rupture that impels!
That's the way we can feel the darkness in the words, it's Edger alan poe's way!
Poetry, the true escapism to a world full of imagination, creativity and expressing emotions, have you ever wondered why such a dark poet could be taken as a motto in life of crime! That's what happened in the case of Edger alan poe readers, due to his mind blowing way in imaging and utilizing metaphors many people had committed crimes inspired by his poems just like the bells, the raven , Anable lee .... etc.
Experience and read the way poets were preformed in the past centuries and you will admit that old is always gold, and don't forget to watch a movie called "The Raven" in which you can see what I meant by people got affected by Edger alan poe's poems and had applied them in their murder !

3/9

Well.... since my life has been a series of remarkable dates, the ninth of march 2013 will stay the reason why this idea has been settling in my head for four years!
This day was the beginning of a whole new life, these four years had made me a different person, the first one was the worst of all times, I lived every little meaning in the word loneliness! Every dark side of this word was a lesson to be learned! Actually I learned a lot!
The second year was better I entered the university and started a new life, but the third was a bit uglier, anyways the last one had made a real distinguished change, many things happened in this year, as they say, the winds of change had blown my life and turned it upside down!
I gained tremendous stories and lessons this year that I'm still working on applying them in my life!
Tomorrow is the annual ceremony of my remarkable day! May all the hopes in us find their way to reality and find the glimpse to paradise!

13

Some people believe in this and others don't, the hypothesis of the lucky number!
I do believe in it, it could be irrational but when something happens and repeats itself though time, you begin to believe in it.
My lucky number is 13, I don't know why, maybe since I was in grade four and the teacher was talking about the dilemmas and bad luck incidences, when he mentioned that number 13 is considered a wicked number in most places of our world, I got so passionate about the subject and decided to search about it and learn more about it. After I had found that there is no logic in considering it a tricky number, I decided that from now on it will be my luck number!
And so it was, since then this number has been related to my destiny, when we have random seat numbers it always pump into me! Never the less my total grades sum always coincidences a total with -13, in addition, every 13th of month has a special memory  and considered a remarkable day! But the one thing that will always confuses me that the year 2013 was the worst year I've ever lived!


                                       

Depression & hope

Depression, it sucks the life out of you, it rapes your hours cruelly, it wastes every single high light of your life!
A lot of people gave up and grant themselves to this wicked illness, they enter a closed labyrinth of isolation and loneliness, some of us go to a  psychologist and some believe that if they went they will be called sick people or mental issued patients.
Everyone of us has suffered from this disease, some has overcome it and some didn't. For me when I get depressed I search for the tiniest glimpse to get ride of it, I've found this in hope!
Here's a story that happened to me and prompt the hope out of me; once upon a time, when the crisis in Damascus had crossed the limits, there was a bombed car explosion literally beside my house, my mom and my little brother were in the house alone because me and my other brothers were in school and my father was at his work, when the tremendous explosion happened, I ran from the school as fast as I could to find a dark cloud of ashes arising near to my house where my mom and my little bother were sitting alone, I called and called them and there was no answer!
Can you believe this feeling, imagining your life after your mother's & brother's  death ? Believe me I had lived it for 3 hours, away from my house that I couldn't reach because of the continuous fight beside it.
Anyways, after 3 hours of tragedy and depression, I have received a call from my grandma telling me that they are safe and sound, after hearing that, there it came the tears of hope, and the tears of a new beginning.
Take my advice and just believe that your god won't ever hurt you unless there is a lesson he wants you to learn, never gave up hope and surrender yourself to depression!

Not today

Have you ever lived this moment, the remorse , when something happens and touches you deeply !
At this moment, the most relevant song comes to you mind :/
Sometimes we hurt close people to us unintentionally, and we keep suffering from mistakes that we didn't even wanted to happen.
All we do is to wait and wait and wait, and just like that as many people say; time heals every thing!
I don't believe in this.
The only thing that can heal is something compensatory happens to the damaged person, something that can make it up for him!
That's my wish.......
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From the song "not today" for "imagine dragons"

It's gotta get easier, oh easier somehow
Cause I'm falling, I'm falling
Oh easier and easier somehow
But Not today ........ Not today!

A monster calls

Since I was talking about novels, today I've picked a novel to talk about, first of all " SPOILERS ALERT " this post is for these who aren't interested in reading nor  read this novel before, And since today is Valentine's day, what is more innocent and pure than the relationship between a mother and her son?
 Just remember  who's the most person you care about since you were born, your MOM! The only one who always tell you that you are the best thing that had ever happened to me, so imagine if you mom was weak and sick, and you just can't withstand the idea of letting her go and die! Having this nightmare again and again, and one day you get tired and in your nightmare you let her go! For her sake to stop feeling the pain, but you still can't accept the idea that you did such a thing!
You come to a point when you feel weak, alone, falling down into pieces.
And then spontaneously you call for a cry of help, you call an imaginary monster, a wise tree that tells stories, first of all the stories didn't make any sense but then after ending the three stories, there comes the time for the forth one but this time the boy has to tell it, he has to admit the nightmare that he had been watching over and over!
Finally! He admits it!! He tells the truth, and just like that he manged to let his mom go in the real world :'(
This story may not seem reasonably to some people, but it's a true story about the truth, about not withstanding to unleash and leave your forever and ever Valentine! About tears of lost and sadness.
It's about starting a new beginning!

When you get passionate!

It's right! We all have that time when we get passionate about something, just like me now  writing my second story only after two days from creating this account 
Since we take about passion, is there any other way that we can say it in an other word ? There's nothing in my mind by the way, but I this that is when you love something so much that you want to do it instantly and frequently!
Each one of us has a passion, but do you know what is mine ? It may sound boring to some people, but for me it's make friends :P renewal your life each day by knowing somebody that you haven't met him before, at some moments these new people are the boost we get to start a new begining, could be through out listening to new stories that may affect you directly or indirectly, blogging is one of these ways that you can share stories by! Or it could be by having fun time with time and break the routine we have in our days!
Therefore, what's better than having fun and learing from new experiences at the same time :') charge your life with this passion and believe me it will change your life !

Let's Start!!

I don’t know where does this idea come from :P But expressing and sharing stories is one of the things that I usually find myself in!
As usual every 9th of any month is considered a turning point in my life :P it may seem ridiculous to some people, but believe me in my case it’s not, it all has started 4 years ago on the 9th of march 2013 when we decided to move from Syria and settle down in Egypt, first of all we didn’t know that it’s going to take this long; I mean 4 years come on XD who knew that he would live far away from his home for this long, and in the near horizon we see that we may still out of our country for three or four years more, who knows anyway :P
Therefore, from that point I’ve decided to make every 9th of a month a special day to remember, and what is better than to start blogging! maybe be this could be the most remarkable date in my whole life :’D
So From 9th of February 2017, Let me start my new Journey of life :’)